When I approached Jackie with the idea for this blog I thought it was going to be oh so much fun. I'd be checking off items and feeling so self-actualized in the process. I wrote out a list of challenging but important goals that would guide my life, and perfect little plan, into a higher plane of being-- it was going to be awesome.
Well, as it turns out, this shit is hard. It's constant self-reflection and pushing yourself to accomplish something when there's hours and hours of crappy movies on Netflix yet to be watched; and oh how they beckon. Oh, and apparently life doesn't always follow that perfect little plan you outlined in your journal three months ago; or at least mine didn't.
Just be patient and don't worry. This has become my mantra.
I'm currently unemployed which may make going to Haiti in December tricky. I really wanted to spend the whole month there, but that entirely depends upon my future employers. The current goal is to find a job that can accommodate an extended trip. I still feel like this is where I'm supposed to be heading so I'm trying to believe that something *perfect* will pop up.
Also, here's a bit of news: I'm not going back to school in the fall. It's a very long story and I'm sure some of you are shaking your heads right now. Well, ye of little faith, first of all you look silly shaking your head at a computer screen. Second of all, I will be going back to school, but I need to find a school and program that I feel will set me up for a successful future. CU Denver wasn't doing that for me. If anyone knows anything about creative writing programs around the country–or simply where you think I should direct my life–your input in the comment section is very much appreciated.
Here's a run down of my goals, where they've been and where I'm going with them:
1. Weight Loss: Hahahahaha. I mean... I lost my gym membership so I'm doing the best I can. Sort of. That dress will fit in July though, dammit.
2. Straight A's: So, since I won't be going back to school in August, this goal is the first to fall by the way-side. But there had to be at least one I failed at, right?
3. Incorporate Artist's Dates: I'm unemployed, every minute of my day is an artist date.
4. Finish a writing project: This summer, it's on. You and me, Emily Dickinson. Prepare to be bffs.
5. Get something published: Let's work on finishing something first.
6. Get out of the city, state, country: I'm going to Gunnison tomorrow for a very exciting reason which I may or may not expand on next week. Stop shaking your head, seriously, you look dumb.
7. Read through Austen: So close to being done with Sense and Sensibility. After that I'm taking a short break to read something more modern and then it'll be back to Pride and Prejudice; Mr. Darcy, it's been too long.
8. Discover 10 new things about Denver: I went to my FIRST first friday a few weeks ago. I know, I've grown up in Colorado and lived in Denver for three years and I'm just now going; it's a travesty that I'm glad has been rectified. Any suggestions on what I should do or see this summer?
9. Make our Apartment our home: Dad, if you're reading this, we have stuff to hang on the walls. Please bring your muscles and your tools to help. Thanks. Also, if you're reading this, I'm sorry I cursed earlier.
10. Art from Ashes internship: I emailed the group and received an email back saying I should sit tight and hopefully will have more detail soon... whatever that means.
11. Learn Creole/French: Seriously, where do I begin to do this? Rosetta Stone? Do they teach Creole?
12. Crafts!: Hopefully there will be some brand new, hand made throw pillows down stairs soon.
So there ya go. Not a whole lot of headway, but my life has been shifting a lot. Now that I'm a bit more adjusted I'm excited to really start focusing on these goals this summer. Thanks for sticking with me!